"You keep the sunshine, Save me the rain"

Lately, I've noticed that I try and try to keep people smiling and happy. When in fact, I'm not as happy as I could be.. Sometimes I believe that God wants me to try my hardest to help people, but I don't see anything in return, or maybe I do have something in return but I'm too blind to see it. Maybe I'm not making the right moves, or saying the right things lately, but life in general just doesn' seem as happy as it usually is. People have been coming to me with problems, which I love but it seems that the people I want to tell me things, in fact don't. Which really blows. At least I'm alive and well. That is about all that keeps me going. That and the fact that I do have people who care for me. Today someone told me to follow my own advice, which felt good for the time being.. but my own advice isn't always suited for me. I want advice from others because it basically gives me a safety net. Advice doesn't help me. You could tell me what to do or try to influence me, but I don't give a shit. I'm going to end up doing what my heart wants. I just need the advice so I can truely find out how I feel. These are my thoughts. This is my life. Love, Badger