"You and I are like oil and water"

I just don't know what to even right about anymore. I can't explain my emotions very well anymore. But I can try I suppose..

I tried sticking with the nice guy thing. Doesn't work. Tried the douchebag thing. Also, doesn't work. So ya know what that means? Its just me. So I guess if I don't care anymore it won't matter? But.. I don't wanna have to be the Lonely Badger again..

I like just being Badger. But soon enough, I see the change. Coming for me.

I just want to ask.. Do you know what it feels like to know that you'll never have someone even how much it should happen?

Yeah think about that..

Peace.

"My word is my pride, but wisdom is bleak and thats a word from the wise"

Alright. So lately, I've been feeling pathetic. I thought a trip to Florida would keep me happy. I was right..

While I was down there, I realized a lot of things. Things that it took being away from my family and friends to see. I realize I've been living, without actually living. So I will be going to church with the Swan boys. I realized that there's more to life than I always thought.

I need to build up relationships that I have lost. I need to re-connect with my sister Danielle. Even if she did act ridiculous.

Also, as for girls. What is the point. If I need a girl, God will give me one. Or at least he will give me the power to know if I should pursue the right one.

That's about all the good news.. Now of course there are always two sides to every story. So lets begin with the bad stuff.

I came home. I went in to my room, to find a bunch of my things gone. Some we're returned. I had a whole huge thing of change that I kept.. It's gone. All of it. My brother stayed in my room when I was gone. I also came home to find out that he lost his job.

It is really amazing what drugs can do to a person. So anyone reading this.. Please pray for James. For his sake, mostly. But also for my mother. She's just been so upset. She can't even be happy anymore because of everything that has happened in the past six months or so.

I feel horrible for her. Shit man, she works so hard. For what? A 30 year old who is jobless at home? Yep. That's what she gets. Not fair huh?

I always said that I needed to get out of the house, but I don't. I need to stay here. My life is here. Well at least until Jeff-co is over. Then I'll move. But that is all I have to say for now.

Oh yeah, I love all my friends. You know who you are. End of story.

Love, Badger.

My idol.

This is why I love Jake Parham. Confident enough to do this in front of thousands of people..

Georgia! And the crazy low urinals.. I think we know why that is.