"You've given me the strength to carry on, when all my hope is gone."

ok man. i definitely agree with what your sayin in your blog. It seems like nice guys finish last. and what Kourtney said as a comment in your blog. "Truthfully, how many people in highschool actually know and love themselves for who they are? a very select few." that isnt entirely true. i know lots of people who love themselves for who they are. and you seem or atleast seemed like you were one of them. and girls, they never know what they want, that doesn't just magically fix itself after high school. it will be a while before you, or myself find the girl that truly stands apart from all the other girls out there, before we find a girl who understands us, and loves us for who we are. lets just face it. not every guy is blessed with, charm, good looks, money, nice things, nice car, or even brains for that matter. all you can do is be who you are, and not try to be anyone else. theres no reason for you to be out there searching for some fabricated complacency that you think you need. you have it already. you are an awesome person. as a fellow nice guy i understand the struggles your going through..the lack of confidence, and the lack of motivation, and then the lack of caring after that happens. and your right, girls will realize what they had as you say the good/nice guy. they will realize that the guy opening doors for them, cooking just because, listening to them, being the shoulder for them to cry on, being the nice guy. they will come to realize that they took advantage, and that they didn't give you the time of day, because they didn't realize what they had, and how badly they want a nice guy at that point, because their tired of being treated like shit by some guy who cheated on them. and then it will be too late, because you will have found someone who realized it first, or either because you changed into the guy you didnt want to be. and dont let that happen john. your an awesome person. i know what your goin throug, and ive dealt with the situation first hand, so thats why i am probably so partial to that blog entry. it really made me think about everything, and man your just straight up right in this. some day you will find a girl, or she will find you, but it will happen. and you will live a life of pure bliss. but the journey of life that we are meant to embark on was never meant to be easy. it will haves its highs and lows, and at times it will definitely seem like there are more lows, but you just have to keep your head up and keep pushin along man. no girl that treats you like crap is worth your time, and until they realize that your a good person, dont give em the time of day, because they dont deserve it. but if a girls nice to you and respects you then sure man be her friend, there are a lot more of those girls out there than you think. and there are far less nice guys out there than we would like to think. its up to nice guys like us to show people that its worth it. in the end. its all worth it. and i have the utmost confidence in this. just keep on keepin on.


-fellow nice/good guy Kip [comebackkid] Lionberger

GaGa who?

Haha. This be Nikki. She makes me laugh.

Reverting back to me.. Part 1

I used to think I was a man. I'm not. Far from it. Truth is, they don't exist at my age. I should know that. I'm still just a boy. Who doesn't know what he wants. I might not even be a good person anymore. Since I changed my appearance, my whole person changed. I don't exactly know why. I need to forget about my problems. By that, I mean girls. I don't need to be with anyone until I figure out some more of me. I'm going to try and become a better person. It won't be easy. I just need to find out why I do the things I do. I guess when it all comes down to it.. I'm a mess. A boy, who is a mess.

Some gay men at Cowtippers! A place Elsa ate at tonight!

Finally. The void has been filled.

So, I've had a sister for about 17 years now. Her name is Danielle. She stabbed me in the back a long time ago, and I was hurt. I always enjoyed being with her when I could. Unfortunately she fucked that up. But, guess what.. In eighth grade I met what would become, my future sissy. :) Her name is Kaitlyn Mackey. We became close this past year, and I'm so glad. She is there to listen to me when I want to rant about my girl problems for days. She's the person I call and talk to for hours on the phone at night. She's the one who I always ask for a good hug. Finally I have a sister again. She may be shorter than me, but she'll always be my big sister. Here she is. :)

Hahaha!

AWWE!

Baby Badgers. :)

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New shirt. Like?

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Jake and I. It's what we do when schools almost out.

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Yeah..

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Ridiculous vest i found while cleaning my closet.

"Songs About Girls"

So that is the current album I am listening to right now. Its by Will.I.Am. He's pretty awesome. So I've decided thats what I am going to write about today. Girls.

A few words about them. Like men, they just are fuckin crazy! But lately I haven't cared as much as I have in the past. Why do I need some bitch in my life when I can make myself happy by doing other things?

Yeah there are girls that I would date, but those girls are too fucked up anyways. When they change their idea of what they want. Guys like me, we'll be either gone or unavailable. Then who's sad huh?

Come to think about it, I always write about girls.. Maybe I should change this blog just to be about girls? Haha no, that would be boring.

Girls can ruin things. They can fix things. But so far, they've only ruined things. And smashed my confidence. But guess what? It's slowly building. I've changed a shit ton in the past like month and a half. Not neccessarily my personality but appearance.

Oh shit, the best song on the album came on. I got it from my mama. Haha.

But now, I'm not feelin this song. Im gonna change it to some Motion City Soundtrack. Thats an amazing band. They make me feel great and the lead singer has the coolest hair ever!

Anyways, back to this rant about women.

Ya know what universe, I wanna make a deal.

I'll be a better person if ya throw me a nice girl. Someone to help me, or at least understand me. That would be the shit. Preferably a red head with tattoos and piercings? :) Haha

Until then, I'll be here. Just chillen.

Love, The Lonely Badger

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Wasted City Museum trip! But oh well. Taken from inside my car. Thanks Greg.

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