Reverting back to me.. Part 1

I used to think I was a man. I'm not. Far from it. Truth is, they don't exist at my age. I should know that. I'm still just a boy. Who doesn't know what he wants. I might not even be a good person anymore. Since I changed my appearance, my whole person changed. I don't exactly know why. I need to forget about my problems. By that, I mean girls. I don't need to be with anyone until I figure out some more of me. I'm going to try and become a better person. It won't be easy. I just need to find out why I do the things I do. I guess when it all comes down to it.. I'm a mess. A boy, who is a mess.