Boy 2 and Boy 3 converse:

Boy 3: Dude, why didn't you warm me?

Boy 2: It wasn't my place.

Boy 3: Yes it was!

Boy 2: Well, I didn't know.

Boy 3: MISTAKE! She was crazy.



Good black Friday.
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"You and I are like oil and water"

I just don't know what to even right about anymore. I can't explain my emotions very well anymore. But I can try I suppose..

I tried sticking with the nice guy thing. Doesn't work. Tried the douchebag thing. Also, doesn't work. So ya know what that means? Its just me. So I guess if I don't care anymore it won't matter? But.. I don't wanna have to be the Lonely Badger again..

I like just being Badger. But soon enough, I see the change. Coming for me.

I just want to ask.. Do you know what it feels like to know that you'll never have someone even how much it should happen?

Yeah think about that..

Peace.

"My word is my pride, but wisdom is bleak and thats a word from the wise"

Alright. So lately, I've been feeling pathetic. I thought a trip to Florida would keep me happy. I was right..

While I was down there, I realized a lot of things. Things that it took being away from my family and friends to see. I realize I've been living, without actually living. So I will be going to church with the Swan boys. I realized that there's more to life than I always thought.

I need to build up relationships that I have lost. I need to re-connect with my sister Danielle. Even if she did act ridiculous.

Also, as for girls. What is the point. If I need a girl, God will give me one. Or at least he will give me the power to know if I should pursue the right one.

That's about all the good news.. Now of course there are always two sides to every story. So lets begin with the bad stuff.

I came home. I went in to my room, to find a bunch of my things gone. Some we're returned. I had a whole huge thing of change that I kept.. It's gone. All of it. My brother stayed in my room when I was gone. I also came home to find out that he lost his job.

It is really amazing what drugs can do to a person. So anyone reading this.. Please pray for James. For his sake, mostly. But also for my mother. She's just been so upset. She can't even be happy anymore because of everything that has happened in the past six months or so.

I feel horrible for her. Shit man, she works so hard. For what? A 30 year old who is jobless at home? Yep. That's what she gets. Not fair huh?

I always said that I needed to get out of the house, but I don't. I need to stay here. My life is here. Well at least until Jeff-co is over. Then I'll move. But that is all I have to say for now.

Oh yeah, I love all my friends. You know who you are. End of story.

Love, Badger.

My idol.

This is why I love Jake Parham. Confident enough to do this in front of thousands of people..

Georgia! And the crazy low urinals.. I think we know why that is.

"You've given me the strength to carry on, when all my hope is gone."

ok man. i definitely agree with what your sayin in your blog. It seems like nice guys finish last. and what Kourtney said as a comment in your blog. "Truthfully, how many people in highschool actually know and love themselves for who they are? a very select few." that isnt entirely true. i know lots of people who love themselves for who they are. and you seem or atleast seemed like you were one of them. and girls, they never know what they want, that doesn't just magically fix itself after high school. it will be a while before you, or myself find the girl that truly stands apart from all the other girls out there, before we find a girl who understands us, and loves us for who we are. lets just face it. not every guy is blessed with, charm, good looks, money, nice things, nice car, or even brains for that matter. all you can do is be who you are, and not try to be anyone else. theres no reason for you to be out there searching for some fabricated complacency that you think you need. you have it already. you are an awesome person. as a fellow nice guy i understand the struggles your going through..the lack of confidence, and the lack of motivation, and then the lack of caring after that happens. and your right, girls will realize what they had as you say the good/nice guy. they will realize that the guy opening doors for them, cooking just because, listening to them, being the shoulder for them to cry on, being the nice guy. they will come to realize that they took advantage, and that they didn't give you the time of day, because they didn't realize what they had, and how badly they want a nice guy at that point, because their tired of being treated like shit by some guy who cheated on them. and then it will be too late, because you will have found someone who realized it first, or either because you changed into the guy you didnt want to be. and dont let that happen john. your an awesome person. i know what your goin throug, and ive dealt with the situation first hand, so thats why i am probably so partial to that blog entry. it really made me think about everything, and man your just straight up right in this. some day you will find a girl, or she will find you, but it will happen. and you will live a life of pure bliss. but the journey of life that we are meant to embark on was never meant to be easy. it will haves its highs and lows, and at times it will definitely seem like there are more lows, but you just have to keep your head up and keep pushin along man. no girl that treats you like crap is worth your time, and until they realize that your a good person, dont give em the time of day, because they dont deserve it. but if a girls nice to you and respects you then sure man be her friend, there are a lot more of those girls out there than you think. and there are far less nice guys out there than we would like to think. its up to nice guys like us to show people that its worth it. in the end. its all worth it. and i have the utmost confidence in this. just keep on keepin on.


-fellow nice/good guy Kip [comebackkid] Lionberger